There goes my 4th sem....

Today is my last day of my fourth semester.Of all the effort and the sleepless nights,i'm so tired.Came back home,get my shower get my body scrub and get a nap.Feel so nice.

Last monday dad cooked.We had delicious roasted pork and patty.Yummy..i got so full because i ate nasi lemak before that.But its so delicious that i cant resist it.Dad is so good in cooking.

Yesterday I got so bad luck.Its the due date for visual merchandising assignment.Went ampang point to get my proposal printed but lost 2 pages.I was pissed until don-t-know-what-to-say.But luckily our lecturer is kind enough to let me touch up today.Then yesterday after i hand in my assignment,me and lynn went Midvalley to meet her hubby.We went Secret Recipe first.I was so hungry cos haven't eat anything since i woke up in the morning.I ordered kid's burger to eat.So cute la!!!

After that we went to watch Fantastic Four.The cinema was so cold.I rate the movie 4/5.I love Jessica Alba and his brother,'torch' in the movie,he's so damn cute!!!After the movie,we went Chilis and we were chit chatting.Told lynn my part of history and she told hers.After that we do our revision.Stay up till 11pm something.Got so tired and went back home.I slept about 2am.Wow!it was fantastic...because i'm so tired.

So now i'm going Sunway Redbox with lynn.And there's so much plans coming...woohooo...and i'm going Bali next week!!!!

Is love that important after all?

Well sorry for not updating my blog for quite awhile due to my assignments and outings. Well now its the end of the semester where all the final assignments and exams coming,don't even have the time to get my body scrub.After this week,i can have fun already.Going Bali soon and i'm so excited about it.So soon and now is already mid of June.

Not a good month for me cos last night when i stay back at college do assignment,after that wanted to go ATM but is already 12 midnight and i only have RM1 in my wallet.Mobile gone barred because no credit so cannot sms so didn't sms aunty to not latch the door.So went to 711 to get top up,borrowed RM10 from my friend.Got so pissed because RM10 top up were sold out!Then got back home and as what i've expected the door is latch and i can't get in so borrowed my friend's phone to sms and luckily aunty got it.And this aunty also one kind one la,don't know how to sms and ask people whether going home or not one meh!I was so tired,didn't even online and slept about 2am.

Wow this morning...damn annoying...there's some people keep on calling me.Wanna sleep peacefully also cannot and i end up trying hard to get up.Went to college today,do assignments and revisions.Rajin rite?Hahahaha then went KLCC then went Midvalley.Wanted to find some translucant box or plastic box but can't get.I'm so damn sleepy so damn tired and got me become so forgetful.But suprisingly i can do my assignments,very quickly,its just that there's boundaries where i forgot to take my pendrive when i'm at Starbucks KLCC trying to do my assignments and my group mate can't online and all.I had a very nice nasi lemak just now with Lynn and her hubby at Bangsar.Wanted to meet up Binny also but i need to do assignment and he didn't bring his lappy so better don't go lor.

For 2 days already lor we didn't contact each other,felt uneasy whenever i think of him but i guess is better like that so we can slowly call it off.Sometimes i really think 'is love that important after all?'.

A women's pride

During tea time,i sat down with Popo Yee and aunty.We were talking about aunty's 30 over years of friendship friend,Aunty Juliet.Recently they met back and got to know Aunty Juliet's story.

Well,Aunty Juliet's was in a wealthy family.Her father don't want her to study at local University so he sent her to England to study,paid her 2 years University fees and gave her some money to survive.She didn't get a part time job because she need to study,only rely to the money that her father gave her.When she finish using the money she asked her father to send her money.She waited and waited.No money come.Her father was declared bankrupt back in Malaysia.She waited till she have to stop studying,wasted her school fees and have to work in England.She worked there for a couple of years and then came back to Malaysia.She wasted her chance to get the education that she wants because her father didn't tell her that he's gonna bankrupt before she went to England.And now she end up working at SJMC selling some hospital equipment or something like that.

All the while dad wants me,joan and jill futher our studies at UK because he himself was british educated.He want it so bad even though now is so much expensive compared to 30 years ago.First person is me.It has also became my dream.But i have doubts.The plan is i finish my advanced diploma next year and work for couple of years to gain experience and also to save money to go UK in the future.Dad convinced me not to worry,he got the money.I told mum and she don't agree.I even told her i wanna become a air stewardess,one is because this is what i always wanted to do apart from fashion and another reason is the pay is much more higher compared to a junior fashion stylist/buyer/merchandiser etc etc.And air stewardess only work for 4 days and rest 3 days.I really wanted to go UK.But mum say if i go Australia,she can afford.That will only be my alternative.

But just now Popo thought that after i graduated i wouldn't want to study anymore and i told her of course i want!And she said "haiya...girl study so much for wat la.Work for few years find a husband and get married la".Well i told her i want to study is because of myself not for other people.And aunty was saying "haiya ur dad where got money to give you go UK to study",yala i know you want my dad's money la and don't want me to go study right.In your dreams!!You one cent also cannot get from my dad!And she somemore say "you see la how Aunty Juliet now,its not easy you know,very expensive somemore".

I heard a lot of people saying women no need so much education,get a rich husband enough already no need to work.But i don't think so.How if the marriage screwed up?How do you gonna survive?Going back to your parents and use their money?Or till then only find a washing dishes job at a restaurant or a sales girl?Or find another boyfriend who can give you money to use and treat you like a whore?If the marriage don't screw up,good for you.But you couldn't just rely on your husband right?

Hmmmm...We couldn't just depend on men all the time.We also need education and even experience to support ourselves.We have to make our own money,our own success.Without men we still can survive,without love we also can survive.All we need to do is get the education that we want,do the things that we want and pursue of dreams our ambition.No one can say we are wrong or right.You wanna become a housewife,go ahead.You wanna become a business women,go ahead.You want to become Malaysia Next Top Model,go ahead.Do whatever you want as long as that thing is what you wanted to do.No one can stop us if the thing that we are doing is right(I'm not saying about drugs and all that).

I know now most of the people working in a job that doesn't even related to what they study but no matter how,at least you can proudly tell people that you're a degree holder or even much better.At least you got your education.Like my mum previous boss's wife,studied at Harvard University before,got her MBA and now she's a housewife.Felt a bit wasted but at least in her life she achieved something.Right?

*above statement or examples have nothing to do with anyone even dead or alive

Restless me...

Came back from Sitiawan on monday early morning,again i slept the whole journey back to Subang.Usually when i wake up i won't sleep again if yes also i'll sleep for about 5 to 10minutes,but this time i just can't wake up,wanting to sleep only.After that i went to college for my market research class.I reached there quite early,i'm the 1st who reach in the class and i slept.The cleaning service aunty asked me if i'm sick or whatever when she came in to clean the class and i said no and i continue sleeping.Till people start coming in i also don't know till the lecturer asked other coursemate who am i then only i wake up.After awhile i slept back again til the class starts.I sat there also very sleepy wanted to sleep but i stopped myself to.Ms. Hui Li even asked where have i been...you can imagine how restless looking i am

I stand until i really cannot stand already so i'd to ask Be come and fetch me eventho it's his closing day.Went home swallowed a pill of panadol and snooze till dinner.After dinner then sleep again..........sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppppp only..

Some people really thought that i'm faking it.This morning got a sms from this-person asking me to go college because there's some changes in the assignment.I already tolerate and asked this-person to come somewhere nearby so i can meet this-person to discuss but this-person insisted me to go college no matter how.Fuck la...i can't even wake up how can i go college,i'm damn weak ok!The way this-person insisted as if i'm faking that i'm sick like that.So INCONSIDERATE!

Went to clinic to actually get MC.My fever has gone but whole body still aching.Doc say if next few days the fever comes back,it might be dengue.Hmmmm scary...and i think back,i think i got bitten quite a lot by mozzies lately...But i think i'm just not enough sleep la...haiya scared myself only...ceh!

RAIN party!!

I had such a great time last friday.Imagine yourself dancing in the rain and you are all wet!Its so damn fun!Ok well i went to this Rain party at Liquid dressed up in my black bikini top and micro mini shorts.Its a lesbian party,no guys allowed.Only Binny and his so-called-bf can enter,because he's a commitee of the lesbian eventho he's a guy.

Its not really raining but seems more like shower party but with people holding water guns around,pouring water on you.Well when the party 1st started there's a few dancers starting on some performance to entertain us and soon the rain(shower) was turn on and i was pulled up to the podium and dance.All wet.But its so damn fun!!!!First time in my life and i'm looking forward to the next one.Luckily i didn't get molested but i did get being invited by a girl(not TB) to dance with her and she did touched me la...Maybe she thinks that i'm good *vain*.

Actually Mei wanna go wan with her 2 guy friends but sadly her friends cannot enter.At 1st we thought can wan but suddenly their rules became so stricted because last year's guys allowed and created a lot of issues so this year they don't allow.

Didn't get to take pictures because afraid that it will wet the camera or even hp.I did bring my hp but i don't want to take it out la..scared later my baby rosak.But i did self-potrait myself when i'm taking a break outside *will post it later*.Was so tired because i didn't get enough sleep.The day before i didn't sleep till about 9am only sleep and was disturbed by phone calls,i left it silent after i answered a few calls but i still can hear the vibrations.Then when i was awaken when aunty or whoever wakes Jill up to go back Ipoh so i checked my hp.Binny called and he said he's coming in 2 hours time,and i only slept for 2 hours.

Then i woke up,remove my make up *was too tired to remove before this*,changed and went downstairs to see if they are leaving already or not.But dad just went up and bath so have to wait for him so i sat downstairs and wait as well because i so wanna see daddy.Waited for awhile and i decided to take my bath 1st since dad is still not done.After shower,everyone was ready to leave except for me and dad.So muaks muaks with Joan and Jill then left me and dad at home.So we have a little talk about my future.Then Binny reached and i asked him to wait for while cos i'm still talking with dad till dad noticed Binny was out at the gate waiting in the car for me.So dad asked me to go and i quickly run up and pack my stuff very quickly.Muaks muaks with dad then i ciao,i thought dad will give me some money but sigh...forget about it...

Then went to KL with Binny and Tze.Had lunch behind TS in a chinese restaurant,had typical china food and its quite nice.Tze meeting her friends so left me and Binny go Sg. Wang.Met Mei up at KLP to get the fake eyelashes glue.Had a little bit of shopping cos Binny wanna buy slippers from fourskin then we left.Went back to Binny's house and we slept till 8pm,woke up and gets ready for the party.We were all excited about it.

Kinda bad luck this time cos Binny's so-called-bf nearly cannot enter and by the end of the party,we couldn't find Binny's car key and it was not being removed at the boot before we went to the party,Binny's hp screen rosak after being squashed with the boot and Tze's hp is wet until the screen turns off.On the other hand,my hp is also in my bag together with her's but mine nothing happened also and luckily my laptop and other stuff that was kept inside the boot didnt get stolen.

So sent Binny's cousin back and we went back to Binny's.Ate nasi lemak,get shower and had a little talked before we slept.Again,i only slept for 2hours because i have to go over to Be's to go back Sitiawan.Binny sent me there.But i reached there,we are still not leaving.Be said don't want follow his housemate cos he's gonna leave at 830am.So we continue sleeping till Be woke up finish packed his things only i wake up and we left about 1130am.Dah la don't want to fetch me and want me to reach by 8am,reached already also haven't leave!If i know i sleep at Binny there longer la and also can let Binny sleep abit longer.Sigh...ego!

I slept most of the journey back and the weather is so damn hot!!Then reached already Be sent me home and he went back home.Didn't get any rest then i drove mum to grandma's place to see my QQ(uncle from Spore) before he leaves.He came back to paint the house for ONE day and the rest he went out to drink.He came back to Sitiawan last Wednesday.When i'm there i can already see him drinking alone at grandma's house.After that went out drink my favourite kopi peng then went back to grandma's to fetch QQ to Kg. Koh there to take bus.

Do nothing much back here,went for dinner at Econsave then came back home and watch DVD.Ghost Rider.I watched until i wanna sleep but managed to finish the movie.Took my bath and now i'm out at the living room sofa online with a tmnet dial-up again.

p.s: fyi,i'm not a homosexual or even a bisexual to go to the rain party..even if i am,i will surely show it out and wouldn't hide it.I just wanna have fun.Anyway straight girls are allowed in the party so anyone wanna go let me know. ;P

decision r hard 2 make

I wonder will i face regrets in the future.Well people say if u don't make mistakes u wudn't learn.Well,i'm goin to leave so that i can be myself,pursuing my own dreams and ambition without any restriction without having to face black espressions,going out with whoever i want,going home anytime i want and doing anything that will make myself happy.

I know its for my own good but i just want to explore the world myself at least i will know what it feels like and how does it looks like so that i'll learn.I leave not because of anyone else but myself.I'm tired,tired of being somebody who is not me,being so restless to do something that i want to do and doing something that i don't want to do.

I really hope u understand.

Emotional support

Whole nite I didn't sleep.Luckily got to college in time.And when i'm in the taxi,the taxi driver looked at me and ask what is my occupation,so i said student.Then he's like asking to be a model and telling me i'm pretty and then i tell him "tak cukup tinggi lah pak cik" then he answer "boleh lah muka cantik cukup lah" then i just smiled. I know i'm vain...hehehe.

Recently i've been talking to a lot of people.Getting a lot of advices.Some people who i don't talk to them also can see that i'm not happy,my smile hidden a lot of unhappiness,very fake.But kind enough when i'm down there's people who supported me and teached me,they want to see the happiest smile that i always had.

Down moments

Its freaking 2.39am and i'm drinking beer alone.Thought of getting myself numb for awhile but it just couldn't get me drunk!And when i don't want to drunk,i fucking drunk and its infront of my friends!!!-_-"

That's the way it is...the more you want it to be the more it don't want to be...


am i crapping now????????

Shit!

Saturday Nite

Binny came and fetch me and we went 1u.Saw two leng zai's,too bad can't take picture with 'em.Everyone will surely kill me cos i'm buying stuff again when i keep on telling them i', broke,and this time is a white long sleeved off shoulder SEED blouse,30% off at Padini Concept Store.Wanted to buy more but i controlled myself,need to save some money to get a new memory card and yeah i lost it again...really no fate with memory cards this is the second time already!!!

Went over to Valeska's party after that.What a small world,i saw a bitch at the party.Coincidently her bf is Valeska's friend so she went along.So i tell a few of my friends about her and she's definitely related with this word 'buruk',fashion sense sucks.When comes to group photo sessions,as if she's a part of them,so perasan and take picture with them even Asthena's bf also didn't take picture with us when comes to collegemates turn.Anyway,the food was nice,i like the sotong and the chicken.

After that i followed Kym back to Setapak.We went to a place called Feeling Cafe.I heard it was opened by some local singers.I like the place,got so-called-live band,can request songs and you can even write/draw out your feelings on the wall.We got suprised when there's two guys buy us apple salad and they didn't ask for our names nor mobile number.Its nice.Kym met her friend there and he dedicated a song to me.I'm so suprised and i wonder how he knew.He's a psychology student and the song is so related to my feelings that time.Had a great time,me and Kym,as usual,we talked.But that place can really makes you feel emotional.I thought about a lotsa stuff when i'm there,I think i know what to do about it.

Oh ya!The day before I went Midvalley with Mic,Kym and Asthena,i saw this vest at Miss Selfridge.Its so nice and its so my size!!!Very masculine,cool,sexy and its the last piece.It cost RM183!!Sigh..i decided not to buy...

Twisting and turning in a space that's too small...

I've open this page for so long n I duno wat to blog abt.Lately my mood has nvr been stable since grandpa passed away.Indeed,i miss him alot.

Recently i watched this taiwan serial drama called Angel Lover.I'm abt to finish d drama n I cried for most of it.Its quite interesting.In this world,there's a lot of different personality,attitude n beliefs in people.

Nowadays people kip on complaining n wish tat they can forget sum parts of their memories but thr's sum ppl in tis world try it so hard to recall their memories when they lost their memories.When they haf it they wana forget abt it,when they lost it they wana get it bak.Sum people oni knw how to think committing suicide everyday in their lives while sum people wana live for one more day aso kenot.Y humans r all like tat?when tat person leave den u oni knw how much u nit tat person,when u gonna die u oni treasure life,when u make mistakes oni u will learn,when u missed it u oni knw how important it is etc. etc.

Humans r selfish i supposed.

Alot alot alot of things happened recently.I guess i jst cudn't adopt with it.I'm in a situation which is undecided.I din realise it was so bad until today.All this while i was laughing n smilling outside of me but actually matter got worst inside.Maybe I don't face d fact*like wat tat person once/more told me before*.Infact,i don't dare to face it n i don't know how to.I tot i shud understand myself more than everyone else in this world but actually i aso don't understand myself.I may know wat i want but i don't know if d choice i made will hurt other people n i don't know how to settle it.Maybe, i too care abt other people feelings adi.

Now i really don't know wat is actually happiness means to me becos happy to me is jst a very short term thing.Is tat my problem?I think too much??Or i'm d one who created all d problem by thinking too much,caring too much???Is it becos i'm a person who kenot be stable for once????AM i stupid?????

Does all this sound familiar to u?Yea i knw most of my blog all sounds similar with this.Jst the same old shit everyday every month every year.-Tired-

Random Pictures

Me & Mummy
"FLY"show
This little girl can sing very well
Very smart little girl that only likes pretty and handsome to be friends with
impressing...btw tat baby doesn't belongs to him
Denim Nite

On d stage receiving the prize
Tada!!!At 1st it really sounds good but dun make it like ur concert like tat la

See!people aso kenot tahan sleep adi NiceOooooooo i'm freeeeezzzziiiinnnnggggg!!!

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Bye bye Grandpa...rest in peace orh...miss uWe will love you forever...

Our very straight forward-tidy-clean-talkative-generous-funny-cute aunty n her 4 nieces

4 pretty ladies with a monkey...LOLThe man in the houseThe family potrait...without grandpa...The cutest couple *QQ(pronounce in 'kiu kiu' in hakka,means mother's brother)& Aunty Audrey(his wife)*

Birth Date

Your Birthdate: January 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world. You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm.Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche.Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done. Your strength: Your inner peace Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds Your power color: Emerald Your power symbol: Leaf Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

ARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

I'm so messed up!So fucked up!!!!How arh?!how arh??????

Tagged!

Browse thru Mic's blog n i found my name where i got tagged by her.Hmmm i'm wondering i perasan or isit really me cos it only stated "Jessica" n there's so many Jessica on earth...Well watever perasan aso nvmla cos i'm so boring nw...

Layer One: On The Outside

Name:Jessica Chen

Birth Date: 11th Jan 1988

Current status: ask me personally

Eye Colour: dark brown

Hair Colour: black
Righty or Lefty: Righty

Layer Two: On The Inside

Your Heritage: Chinese
Your Fears: lizards,cockroaches,boringness,being late,death
Your Weakness: self-consciousness,giving speech,forgetful

Your Perfect Pizza: Hawaiian

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your Thoughts First Waking Up: what to do today?

Your Bedtime: anytime anywhere
Your Most Missed Memory: when i'm back to Stw to see grandpa the last time at nursing home,he smiled n called my name

Layer Four: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi

McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald.

Single or Group Dates: it really depends

Adidas or Nike: currently Nike
Tea or Nestea: depends

Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate...i don't like vanilla

Cappucino or Coffee: coffee

Layer Five: Do You...

Smoke: NEVER!

Curse: there are times tat i curse but not too cruel la..

Take a shower: of cos la!don't u?
Have a crush: i'll let u knw
Think you've been in love: duh!!!!
Go to school: been to but obviously now i'm going to a place called COLLEGE
Want to get married: yes, but not now.
Believe in yourself: sumtimes..
Think you're a health freak: i'm very lazy

Layer Six: In The Past Month

Drank alcohol: of course...
Gone to the mall: isn't this a stupid question?

Been on stage: erm...erm...yea for mum's company best dress award!
Eaten sushi: nop...but i love to

Dyed your hair: not goin to...

Layer Seven: Have You Ever...Played

A Stripping Game: u may think tat i'm wild but actually i'm not..so its a NO!
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: yeah but after awhile i realise being myself is so much better

Layer Eight: Age You're Hoping

To Be Married: 25-30
For a: errrrr...*clueless*

Layer Nine: In a Guy

Best Eye Colour: olive green,sparkling blue,grey etc. etc. *it doesn't matter anyway*

Best Hair Colour: natural blonde*not lala gold*,brown,greyish brown,black

Short Hair or Long Hair: Depends

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing

1 Min Ago: scratch my hair
1 Hour Ago: online chatting n blogging at the same time
4.5 Hours Ago: paint my nails

1Month Ago: can't really recall

1 Year Ago: DAMN!i'm so forgetful

Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence

I Love: to be FREE!!!

I Feel: blank...duno what to do

I Hate: to be someone that i'm NOT!

I Hide: mum n dad's wedding photo inside my cupboard,a place where its quite high which i tot only i can reach...i knw its stupid

I Miss: grandpa...sobz
I Need: to save money to go Bali,Redang n Spore

Layer Twelve: Tag Five People

Robin,amnesty,evie,fiona n bichai....

trembling down...

Grandma & Mummy

Went bak for the weekend for Mother's day.Be treated mum n popo n all of us for dinner.Brought Chester to the vet to get treatment for his swollen injured leggy.It was so disgusting when the doc found a worm at his leggy,ewwww its a meagot*duno how to spell*,a worm that eat dead tissues.

Poor Chester haf to put on the lamp shade thingy..so cute rite!!!This time din get to go my favourite coffee shop cos kinda busy n tired cos last few days was rushing assignment n din sleep.Den went fajar to buy sweet for mum's company.Been toking wif Jie n Yiyi tis time,abt relationship.The whole sunday afternoon i felt so hard to breathe,my heart is pumping so fast.I HATE people walk away from me like tat.So i texted Binny and he calls me back,luckily he cheers me up if not i'll jst burst into tears.

I hope its jst a normal thing nothing much but its too fishy for me to trust.My experience is telling me all tis is so wrong.Haih...well i'm jst goin to give tis one last chance like wat Yiyi said.If its gonna end,it will end no matter how hard i'm trying to save it.

Star facts

Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictions.

AQUARIUS - The One that Waits.Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal.Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to.Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.

PISCES - The Addict.EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor.Energetic. Predict future. GREATkisser. Always get what they want.Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative.Romantic. Caring.

LEO - The Coolest one.Nice to everyone they meet. Their Loveis one of a kind. Silly, Fun andsweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person Ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with... u might end up crying...

GEMINI - The Liar.Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Lovesrelationships,Addictive. Loud.

CANCER - Does It In The Water.Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser.One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Especially with your mom. Not a Fighter, But willKnock your lights out.

ARIES- Irresistible.Nice Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed... Lovernot a fighter, but will still knockyou out. Trustworthy. Always happy.Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has abeautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

SAGITTARIUS-The Lion.Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how toHave fun. Is really good at almostanything. Great kisser. Unpredictable.Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive.Attractive. Loud. Loves being in longrelationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

TAURUS- The Cutie.Most Amazing kisser. Very high appeal.Love is one of a kind. Very romantic.Most caring person you will ever meet!Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous.Great at telling Stories. Not aFighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

LIBRA - The Partner for Life.Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Funto be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!!Thoughtful. Always gets what he or shewants. Loves to joke. Very popular.Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover.Love to bust. Nice. Sassy.Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.Irresistible. Loves being in longrelationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

SCORPIO - Aggressive.Loves being in long relationships.Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Lovesto help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

VIRGO- The Promiscuous One.Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty.

J.E.S.S.I.C.A

A : You like to drink
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly
D : One in a million
E : You love alcohol
F : You are dead sexy
G : You never let people tell you whatto do
H : Very good personality & looks &are a very good kisser
I : Great in bed
J : People adore you
K : You're wild and crazy
L : Unbelievably great in bed
M : Best kisser ever
N : You like to drink A LOT
O : Awesome kisser
P : You are popular with all types ofpeople
Q : You are a hypocrite
R : Easy to fall in love with
S : You are crazy ( in a fun way)x2
T : You're loyal to those you love
U : You are silly
V : You are not judgemental
W : You are very broad minded
X : You rarely let people tell youwhat to do
Y : Best boy/girl friend any one canask for
Z : Always ready.......

long term or short term?

Was very blur today,very.Loads of assignments to do,mid-term tmr.This sem seems like going vry fast....

Eventually things r getting better...hopefully...wif relationship...but will it b jst a short term thing?Hope not...but isnt things happen like tat when u dunwan it to b like tat...d more u hope d more u get disappointed...d more u treat them good d more they take u for granted(in general)

Missing pieces...

Suddenly i felt sumthg is lost inside of me but i duno wat is it.I'm very happy tis two days but i felt sumthg missing inside.I went to Midvalley yesterday to watch movie with Be and went 1u today to meet Theresa up to pass her the handbag.I wanted to buy a lot of stuff.Stuff that i had a lot,stuff tat i duno y i wana buy it for...i jst wana buy as if trying to fill up the pieces in me.But luckily i controlled myself n i bought a pair of shades n a t-shirt for Be.I nearly bought 2 pairs of shades,a wallet,a green sling bag,a t-shirt dress,a nike jacket,a nike t-shirt,get a french manicure,a sony headphone,etc. etc. etc.Arhhhhh control controoolll!

I think is abt grandpa.I miss him so much la...i kept thinking abt him...kept wondering how is he now...does he like the funeral?does he like the place the funeral was held?is he 'happy happy' with the entertainment?'happy happy' is the word he always say...n i still remember whn he's in hosp,he told tis to the hosp worker tat stayed at the flat b4,so cute la whn he say it,we all laughed.But can u imagine anot,in few hrs his body become bones n ashes.Suddenly i'm scared...of death.

Life continues...

I'm back in KL already.Once i reached i went to KLCC,alone...pity me...have to do some research for my VM assignment.Went in to Quicksilver,curi-curi take pictures n look around if i can find any wallet that i like.I found 1,its black n orange one but its rm89,quite broke lately so walk other places n see if i could find a better one anot.Went to Parkson's Warehouse n i saw a black soft leather wallet,very nice n its rm86 but the finishing is not that good lor.Same like the Roxy wan so end up din buy.

While i was walking around n i passed by the indoor coffee bean n there's a guy sitting at the side table calling me.I was looking at him before that cos he's digging or putting something in his mouth n its gross!Maybe becos of that he noticed me.He's not bad looking but he's really gross doing that in public.Ewwww...

Btw,this morning while i was waiting for bus at Manjung bus station,i saw a so-called-friend with 2 china dolls.And mum were asking me "is he a pimp?"..hmmm...i duno...no comment

Damn!i still got so much things to do 4 assignments n 4 mid-terms on next week!!!GeezzZZ!How can i cope?Dah lah i last whole week busy with Genting n funeral...haih...

I seriously wan a WALLET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#will blog abt Genting when i got time...damn proud of myself!