Sunday, August 19, 2007

The way I are

I know its been awhile since i last posted.Been busy lately and due to some reasons I don't want to online at home.Hanging out a lot lately and god-knows what time I'm back home every night.Just a update of what I've been upto lately.

Went to gym recently and joining gym by next month cos I've gain a little fat at my belly.Some say I looked better like that but most of them did not.Sad.Been eating quite a lot lately,especially supper and its fattening!!!!Wasted my workout.Nevermind...give me 2 months and I'll be back to my flat plus toned up abs.

Last two weeks,went to GLAM Heart Charity Ball at Palace of The Golden Horses.Thanks to Dada for the VIP passes.So formal that I could ever imagined and luckily I dressed glamorously that night.Met a lot of rich and famous people,all the actors and actresses,models,singers,dato's,tai-tai's,etc.etc.Felt so glamorous :P

On that weekend,I took a bus to Cameron Highlands to meet up with my family.My uncle from Singapore wanted to go there after over 30 years.So nice to be there after so long,I think its been a year ago.Very relaxing and we had a lot of fun.We don't even felt like leaving at the end of the vacation.The best thing is,we ate non-stop.I didn't even felt hungry for a sec,overload everytime.Eventho there's not much nice food there because its too commercialise as it's a tourist place to be but we still can find ourselves eating all the time.Actually there's so much more food that we didn't go for it because the time is just too packed.Well,this time I bought a lot of veggies back.Nothing for dad's home tho.

Then there's assignments that needed to be finish.Very satisfied with the tupperware competition cum assignment,we called it 'fiesta hat'.Its made of tupperware containers.I think we got the possibilities of winning.The grand price its a New York City trip for 2 pax and USD$2000 per person.

I realise I've become further apart from my collegemates,no time to hang out and maybe we could get along.Eventho this semester is quite free but I seems pretty busy.

Had a conversation with dad the other night.Damn sad,disappointed,hurt and angry.Nothing much I can say about it anymore.Just....sigh...

I know people looked at me as a slut,a bitch,a whore and so on but they don't really know who am I,except for some friends who really understands me who really knows me.I didn't make myself cheap.I have a lot of guy friends but it doesn't means that I sleep with all of them,it doesn't mean that I don't study,it doesn't means that I'm cheap!Sometimes I really don't understand why straight mens are so homophobics,gays and lesbians are just normal people,is just that their sexual directions are different from us,straight people.We should respect them and not discriminate them.

Sometimes I may have over-dressed but I am just confident,I wanna wear whatever I want,its up to me.I don't fucking care as long as I know how to take care of myself.No one can ever tell me what not to wear unless I asked for opinions.I am just the way I are.

Very broke lately due to the accident.Waiting for people to pay their debts back but they are just too much,told them already still don't want to pay back.There's one who is going to pay me back tomorrow,hopefully he can be trusted.Its only mid month and i'm already struggling.

Due to the conversation i had with my dad,I decided to move out since things are already screwed up,no point to stay there when i don't feel happy at all.I'll be crazy if i do.And i'm a grown up,i should be able to stay outside and alone.So now i'm looking for a room to rent.Any offers????And soon i'm gonna get a part time job to support myself.Any offers????again???