Let my faith conquer the fear

On My Way Here-Clay Aiken

I took my first step

On that black and white kitchen floor

I sometimes wonder if that house

Is even there, anymore

I had my first glimpse of love

When I was five

I watched two people split apart

But still the three of us survived

I've seen the best

I've seen the worst

I wouldn't change what I've been through

I've touched the sky

I've hit the wall

But I did what I had to

Ooooohhhh

CHORUS:

On my way here

Where I am now

I've learned to fly

I have to want to leave the ground

I've fallen hard

But I've been loved

And in the end it all works out

My faith has conquered fear

On my way here.

Oh yeah yeaaah

My address has changed

Almost every year

I've found that standing still

Can quickly make a lifetime disappear

I'd rather try and fail

A thousand times denied

And this, whenever you feel pain

It lets you know that you're alive

I've been a fool

I've been afraid

Yeah, I've been loved

I've been lied to

I've been wrong

And I've been right

I stood up when I had to

Yeah Yeahhhh

On my way here

Where I am now

I've learned to fly

I have to want to leave the ground

I've fallen hard

But I've been loved

And in the end it all works out

My faith has conquered fear

On my way here.

No guarantees

I believed that I would find

An open door or a light

To lead me to the other side

I guess that is why

On my way here

Where I am now

I've learned to fly

I have to want to leave the ground

I've fallen hard

But I've been loved

And in the end it all works out

My faith has conquered fear

On my way here

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This is a new song I found it quite inspiring.And it can closely relate to me,now.Lovin' it right now...it gives me the courage to face my future.

It's gonna be alright

I think I've pushed myself too hard lately.Surrounding myself with all those impossible thoughts.Too drown into the dramas I watched lately I guess.

I've been thinking....why am I so ambitious?...why am I so stubborn?...why am I not so stupid?...why can't I be more innocent?...why am I expecting too much from myself and other people around me?...why do I have to protect myself too much that I can't even let myself off a little?...isn't it better if I'm stupid and innocent and naive?

I don't know whether I should go for Air Asia walk-in interview or not this coming Saturday.Everyone is asking me to go and try but me myself...haven't even prepared anything yet.What is pulling me away?away from all this?Am I scared?Am I too paranoid about my future?I know I'm avoiding but on the other hand I want to get myself a job asap.

What I wanna do?
PR??
Events???
Marketing????
Assistant merchandiser?????
Cabin crew??????

What can I get if I get myself involve in....
PR/Event /Marketing /Asst. merchandiser?
-average income,good contacts and gain a lot of experiences
-estimated time I can pursue my degree:in 5-10yrs

Cabin crew?
-meet all kinds of people,gets to travel,damn good income
-estimated time I can get my degree:in 3-5yrs

Mum was telling me,I'm still young,no harm trying,just do whatever I feel like doing.

Can someone decide for me?Sigh...I know.My life I decide myself.Thank you.

Happyness?

Nowadays I can hardly online coz I don't have a internet connection at my crib.So whenever I get to online I'll check out my friends blog other than check my facebook and all that.

I read that some of them are so happy with their life now,some were busy going parties,some were busy travelling,some were busy with college and so on...

Hmmmm...then I wonder;have I ever been so happy about my life before?do I have such a great parents to provide so many things in my life?do I still have the best companies to go clubbing together?do I still have the busy-going-out life?

I don't know what's wrong with me this few days and weeks.PMS?maybe...or maybe I'm still in the holiday mood after Bandung and Bangkok,and now it's on idle that's why I keep complaining that I'm bored till I go Langkawi this coming Sunday.

I went to an interview at a event company called Rhinno Max this afternoon.It was a good start if not I'll be lazying till God knows when.Although the company is holding a lot of events but the problem is the working hours is from 830am to 630pm and its compulsory to work on Saturday,so it's 6days a week!!!The starting salary will be RM1.5k to RM1.8k.That fella somemore ask me enough or not.This fella who interviewed me is the most good looking among all the interviewers I've met even though it's only a few I've been.And now my problem is I don't know whether I wanna take this job or not and then this Saturday got Air Asia interview.I'm so confused now.I don't know which one to choose.To be honest,now my main purpose is to save money to get my degree.Both also in service industry but different pay.Being a cabin crew of course will make it possible to get my degree in a shorter period of time but in a event company as a marketing executive will give me more hands-on experience.Then if I get to be a cabin crew,I might not be quitting because of the money and I'll end up not getting my degree.Sigh....wth...wth!!!!

There's a say in chinese 'when the boat reach the pier it will eventually become straight'.I really hope so.

Shopping Spree

The previous post was edited due to the post was being to controversial.

For those who haven't read my previous post,Bangkok trip was a disappointment.But the best part is the shopping,not as satisfied like last year.Last time I can buy 5 pairs old heels and now I can only buy 3 pairs,5 handbags and now only 3,10 pairs of earrings and now none,6 necklaces and now only 2.Not to mention the amount of tops and bottoms of course is not that many.Things in Bangkok are getting more and more expensive even at Jatujak.In conclusion,apart from the disappointment.I got drunk at Route66@RCA , finally can step in to The Bedsupper Club,thai food and shopping was a blast!

lovin' this t-shirt *skinny bitch*

The week before Bangkok,I was in Bandung shopping.Was with mum and her colleagues,it's a company trip.Food was so-so,every day either nasi padang or sudanese because there's malay in our group.Other groups without malay can eat variety of food like chinese food and so on.Shopped a lot too.Mostly working attire like shirts and knee-length skirt apart from t-shirts.Not that enjoying tho cos I was not feeling well the whole trip.The massage is good and is cheap also.Only 50,000 rupiah for 1 hour full body massage with baby oil,which equals to RM18,cheaper than BKK.

Refreshing.Coca cola.

To be honest,depends on what you are looking for,both places provides different things.You can find better quality at Bandung because their stuff are all from factory,at least its branded but is just that the tag was cut off.In BKK,you can find unique designs and the people there are very creative,so you can find a lot of nice special stuff that you can't get it in Malaysia from the local designers in BKK.Apart from that you can get wholesale stuff and it's so much cheaper than you get it in Malaysia and I saw a lot of dresses that I saw Bangsar and it's like 250 baht which equals to RM25 and if you buy a minimum of 3 pieces you can get wholesale price for 180 baht for one.



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Latest hair cut as for 7 July 2008