Everyday in the office:feeling...

I'm super duper extremely ultimately excessively very sleepy!!!!!!!I'm bored!!I'm cold!!!Fucking air-cond!!!!

Update: dear anonymous...yes i'm very boring that's why

Adulthood??

If you just realize what I just realize...It was proved that I'm very boring with this second post of the day.

Well while I was checking my facebook,I got a wall post from Alyse,my used-to-be-best friend but because of something happened,we were not talking to each other for about 5 years now.Think about it,it was so childish and it should be erased from our memory by now.I added her in my facebook recently so she started sending me wall post,asking each other whereabouts and what we were doing and all those kind of stuff.So today she reminded me that we're already 20 years old in one of her wall post to me.

Then I started to think.When we were 15,more or less,we kept wanting to grow older till the age of 18 so that we are legal to go clubs,drink,smoke,sex and so on..Trying to act as one by wearing more mature clothes and doing what 18 years old people do,smoke,drink,go out late at night and even do drugs. (But not for me,I never smoke a ciggerette before not even a puff,never take 'happy5' or ecstasy before even though there's one time I nearly tried but I didn't.So dad and mum,you both should be proud to have such a good daughter but of course I did drink and stay out till late at night la)

So when I reached the age of 18,I became too ambitious to go Zouk for the first time.No doubt the bouncer checked my ID and I'm not allowed to enter.But luckily my friend that I went there with took me in.Then that day I went Genting,tried to enter the casino,same,I cannot enter because I'm not 21 yet.Everyone*old ones was telling me how good to be at the age of 20,so young,so pretty,what also can do.Yes I do agree,if not wait until you old only do meh...And I'm proud that the security and the bouncer still check my ID cos I am YOUNG!

In few more months I'm going to be 21.And I already thinking what to do with my birthday and I think baby also got a plan for it already.But now...the questiion is do I really want that day to come so soon?I doubt so.Who don't want to stay young and active?21 might not be that old but when you pass that age you eventually think that you're older,at least old enough to be in the adulthood.

I need to control my appetite!!!

For freaking 4 days without car,baby finally can take back his car on Friday.Luckily the car engine didn't go dead if not it will cost us a bump!Ok so as usual Thursday is baby's off day,I had to leave him alone for 8 hours and this week it more than 8 hours because I got an event at No Black Tie.It's a Time Out magazine event.It's called 'music on the up' where we gathered a few local underground jazz band to perform.The night was great,the music was perfect and we got great responses.Baby also went to the event but I don't have much time to spend with him.I was so tired and sleepy,so drowsy as if I'm drunk and I can't even walk straight but nope I didn't drink until Richard,our magazine editor,bought me a bottle of Heineken.Apparently I feel much fresher after drinking.

I left about 1130pm and we went to Pandan Indah/Ampang Hill top.I don't know exactly how to call that place but that it is according to Betty dear.Had some supper cos my ever-hungry baby was hungry so we went Gasoline Cafe.And my leggy hurts due to the sloppy hill that I need to walk up with my 4 inch heels.I started to feel drowsy again,sleepy,tired,I guess I've flushed all the alcohol in my body after a few times to the toilet that's why.I think I slept in the car for awhile while on the way home.Super duper sleepy.I never been so tired until I felt so drowsy.

Baby got the car on Friday.Didn't go anywhere at night,just went home early and yeah!I can finally go back to my own crib.Home sweet home.The house was a mess!I can't wait till the next morning to do my cleaning man..I watched P.s I love you,again...with baby this time...and again...sobbing all the way

Woke up around ten-ish on Saturday morning.Went for brunch and dobi before baby heading to work.I decided to stay at home whole day to clean up the place so I don't really need the car.I mopped the floor for 3 times,vacuumed for 3 times,clean the toilet,kitchen and rooms.Hooooh!It was tired but satisfying,to see the house so clean.I took a nap after that around 4 something and guess what time I woke up...726pm.I looked at the time on my phone and I got shocked!Quickly called baby see whether he's back already or not but he didn't pick up and then I remembered that he finish work at 8pm.So I faster bathed,washed my hair,all clean clean...Got a message from Lynn saying that we gonna meet up at Hush Bangsar for a drink with the girls.Then baby came back when I'm half way straightening my hair,continued with my hair then we went to pasar malam nearby our resident area.Again baby wants his putu piring and of course I want my yummy assam laksa.Ooh and I bought durians which I've been craving for such a long long time!Everytime I wanna eat,I sure got ulcer la..heaty la..headache la so end up didn't get to eat it.So finally,it's not as nice as what I've expected but I'm satisfy..so so satisfied.Before baby went out for futsal,Lynn message came and she had to call off the meeting.Arghhh...all my plans were ruined!Actually baby not going futsal,we wanted to go watch movie together but then purposely cancelled watching movie to go to Bangsar and now it's cancelled.I end up being home alone waiting for baby to be back.So I prepare the vege that I bought from the night market to make coleslaw and my dietary meal to bring to office for lunch time.Di di da da..done then I watched tv3 *sorry ar..my house no astro ar* until I fall asleep on the couch.Baby had to misscall me to open the door because I can't hear him calling me from the door. See la how tired I am!


Followed baby to work the next day.Thought that he will be free on Sunday as he got no appointment *yet.Who knows...he's busy,so busy.Waited for binny dear cos we're meeting up at Sg. Wang for some shopping.He 4 something only wake up.He came to Pavilion to pick me up then we went Sg. Wang.I bought a yellow miniskirt and a yellow hairband to match the skirt.I wanted to find a yellow tie but don't have,topshop ties are too expensive for just one tie so scrap that!We sat down at 6th floor to have some thong sui and chit chatted.We were waiting for SanSan to finish work at 8pm.We went W.A.W for dinner.We ate salted egg crabby.That's the highlight of the dinner.After that we went back Sg. Wang to sing karaoke at GreenBox.Left around 12 but I slept at 2 something because that stupid Jerry cut one hair cut need 4 hours to finish and it's not nice at all.Not my hair though,if it's mine I'll probably just ask him to stop and leave.

So now I'm at the office blogging.This post took me around 6 hours to finish.Well I'm doing something in between and take my own sweet time to type this.I'm sleepy,as usual but not as sleepy as I was before.I wonder why.I'm still feeling happy today over last night outing with binny dear.I wish we can do it more often.

Should I go gym today?I'm so gonna gain weight cos I've been eating a lot for the past few days and my trip back to Sitiawan.Shit!I wonder if I brought my gym clothes today...DAMN!control....control....

Car=ur legs

I was back at my home sweet home for the weekends. It was a great time back there, nothing much to do actually but all I do is eat eat eat and eat. Mum bought a lot of food (junkies) back from Taiwan and my Majolica Majorca; 3 neo automatic liquid eyeliner and 2 mascara. I tried the eyeliner and it was nice! It’s something like Shu Uemura liquid eyeliner but I think this is better, easier to apply and so much cheaper. Only 29 MYR. I heard you can find it at Times Square.

Went to my favourite place, the only place I like in Sitiawan,Capri.Didn't have my favourite tiramisu this time, just have some drinks and chit chat.Came back on Monday afternoon.

Met Baby up,went Island Bistro for happy hour with his friend from a salon across the street.Then later decided to go to Baby's cousin brother new hoouse in puchong/bukit jalil.I cooked,can you believe it?Well yeap,I only know how to cook spaghetti and make good coleslaw so I cooked spaghetti and make coleslaw for everyone to eat.It was not bad I can say,they claimed that it was nice,suprisingly my baby said nice and he like it because the other time I cooked he only said "okayyyy~".

Went home that time because the place was so fucking dark,we can hardly see the road we hit something on the road,underneath and nearly rammed into the mini round-about. We thought it was fine but after awhile we smelled burned oil and there's a squicking sound coming from the engine and suddenly the sign of the engine oil indicator starting to light-up. We drove from Puchong to Cheras,I'm so worried and kept asking baby to stop the car.I'm afraid that it will blow up.When we about to reach,I asked baby to stop and we stop at the road side while waiting for baby's friend to come to help.

So we were carless for about 4 days and it was hell!!!!

#i've using the neo automatic liquid eyeliner eyeryday...i love it so much

Life Changes

Is it my problem or this company got problem? Why on earth people do internship I do internship is so freaking different? The thing is other people got so much to do and learn during their internship but me…sigh…I come to the office, on the pc, fill up my bottle, have my breakfast, go toilet, online check my mail then facebook until I got nothing to do, iloveim, read blogs, go toilet, check facebook again, blogging, listen to songs from my blog, Friendster, air asia online book for my trip to BKK and Langkawi, toilet again, lunch break, facebook, Friendster, blog….over and over again…same old shit everyday. Other people that are on their internship all wish that they got nothing to do but me, I rather got a lot of things to do. Ask me carry this carry that I also don’t mind but better not to ask me to do reports and typing and accounting. At least ask me go out do survey, take pictures *oh I love taking pictures*, meeting people and so on as long as I don’t need to sit here for freaking 8 hours, 8 and the half if I don’t go for lunch, facing the monitor and got nothing better to do. They do give me work but I can finish in few minutes, it’s not enough to cover my boredom. Every time half an hour before I leave the office sure got people chat with me one…sigh…why I wanna chat with y’all earlier to kill my time y’all disappeared?

Been reading other people blogs every day, some are my schoolmates, college mates and friends. I realize that I’m actually getting more mature and older compared to other school mates. I can see that they just started to go clubbing especially at Maison and to me and binny, Maison is so out! Seriously I’ve not been clubbing for nearly a month already or more than that, even Frangipani. I’m getting tired of it, we are getting tired of it…am I getting old? are we getting old? Oh well, I read a few blogs from my schoolmates. Everyone's growing differently, they’ve changed. I still can remember their innocence during secondary school time.

How I wish I’m still in college, I can sleep on the days that I don’t have class, go shopping after class or go home sleep or go sing k. I’m so bored here in the office till I’m feeling sleepy most of the time not that I got not enough sleep. Life is so boring everyday…after work go pavilion to fetch baby, sometimes go gym then go home sleep. No more Frangi on Friday. No more shopping. No more events. No more hanging out with binny. My time is so tied up with this internship thingy. How I wish I can quit! Fuck la…I got 3 more weeks!!!!

But anyhow, after internship I’ll go holiday! Yay! But before that have to resit my HR final exam…sigh have to stress first plus I need to write my report! Die! Now I only remember. Damn! After all the stress I’m going Bandung with mum, company trip then 1 week after I come back I’ll go to Bangkok! Yay! Yay! With baby, binny dear, Betty dear and jie, and a few more people, there are 8 of us. I already save money for shopping! This time I’m going to shop till I drop! Then by end of July I’m going to Langkawi with baby and his friends in conjunction of baby’s birthday. Hmmm Langkawi…drink till I drop? Coz I don’t smoke and sun tan!!!!! Yay!! Now I can tan already because before this went to Pangkor cannot tan coz that was the week before my graduation. Oh I’m getting excited!!! I can’t wait!!!!

The power of gambling

I know you people must have been bored with my bloggie coz I didn’t post any pictures in lately.

Ok so..Baby's grandma funeral has finally come to an end on Saturday. Since baby is not working the next day,we went to Genting with baby's friends.We started our journey around 12.30 midnight and reached there about 1.45am.We then went to mamak for supper first then we went Coffee Bean to (really) chill out.We sat outside and we got blown off by the wind and mist.We were frozen,hair were wet and the hot chocolate is not hot enough to warm our hands.SO we move in to sit.After awhile the extremist*my baby and wei kong* wanted to go out to sit and that including me and left Jerry and Yee Ming inside.Without a doubt we left the place outside to the car to warm up a little.In a few seconds after we got into the car,Wei Kong was already snoring.I salute you Wei Kong!Then me and baby also took a nap while waiting for Jerry and Yee Ming.Baby got pissed with them coz we've waited for about an hour or so.They basically got fucked by baby when they came to the car...

from the left: wei kong,baby,yee ming & jerry

Then we went to the casino in First World.Mission failed!I tried twice at different entrance and still they don't let me in because I'm only 20.Actually at the first time I can enter but I freaked out and that fella noticed me so he asked for my IC.So i tried another time at the other entrance.This time it's really pissing me off,that freaking asshole say my age out loud as if no one knows how old am I.The next year when I'm 21,look out you bloody Syafiq!I know your name!Next year when I come back I want you to say my age out loud again.You bloody matha fucka!!!!
So I sat at the bench outside the casino.There was a lot of dramas happening in front of the casino.There's a mother with two kids,quarreling with the daughter who keeps complaining and wanted a place to rest.No doubt coz it's 4am+ already.SO many drama happened at a place,a bench infront of the casino entrance.

Drama 1

Mother: ask her to wait for awhile la...i already book a room for y'all.Just wait until 6am then y'all can go up to sleep then when y'all wake up,I'll fetch y'all home at noon..why she so stubborn wan?you go talk to her la
Son: *softly* then where you want us to go?
Mother: y'all walk around first la...let me go in and win back my money. No RM5k, RM3k also enough already..Please la..*starting to get angry* @#$@%! during dinner time come and kacau me,make me lose money only
Daughter: *shouting* you always gamble gamble..go home la!!!!
Mother: *talking to the son* you see!you go talk to her la...you are much elder you will listen to me one rite??go...go and talk to her
Son: *talking to sister* come la..we go walk around for awhile..it's just 1 and a half more hour to 6am...she's our mom..let her win back the money lor...so we can buy a lot of stuff..come la come la...
#before they go on their way..the mother came and hugged the daughter
Mother: sorry girl..mami loves you...be good ok...i'll come out as soon as possible
#mother went in back to the casino and both of them walked away..

Drama 2

There's a girl sitting at the bench next to mine,looking tired or probably she's crying because her face facing down all the time.Seems like she has sat there for quite a long time.After awhile the boyfriend came out,asking the girl to follow him to go into the casino.The girl ignored him.He tried to persuade her and the girl shouted at him and pushed him away when he walk close to her.The girl cried..the boyfriend was helpless and don't know what to do.After a few minutes,the boyfriend talked to her nicely and she's still unhappy,she want to leave.The boyfriend agreed and they left.

Drama 3

A man in his early 30s,came out and sat on the bench with the look of disappointment.He probably lost all his money.He sat there and tried to sleep.Tossed and turned he still couldn't fall asleep.He left,walking with his head faced down like he got no idea where to go.

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There's so many drama happen because of gambling.No doubt I do gamble,in fact I love to gamble.Only occasionally not everyday not everything plus the amount I gamble is just small matter not more than RM10.Some people can gamble until they abandoned their family,children,property,career and so on.I felt pitiful for the two siblings for having a mother who's addicted to gambling.Gamble until her own children also don't care.What a shame to have parents like that.You wanna gamble,can...but know your limits.

We left Genting at 7am.I wasn't feeling well.Went home straight away sleep till 4.30pm,that's only me...baby slept until 530pm.We went to find for a pasar malam nearby at a malay kampung,just because baby wanna eat putu piring.So we ended up bought a lot of food back to baby's home to eat coz they wanna watch football.I wanted to watch but I'm not feeling well so I went up to baby's room to sleep.I think I catch a cold when I'm at Genting.Luckily I still can come to work...and again...I can't find a reason why they got nothing to let me do and wasting their money for having me sitting in the office play facebook until there's nothing for me to do in facebook.Damn!I'm bored!

Random Pictures

innocence cooluneditedwith a touch of effectsat last...both of us

Damn U Lizzie!!!

Yesterday baby’s grandma passed away. The day before we went to see her and she’s in pain. We felt so heartbroken to see her suffer like that.

I took MC yesterday coz I’m not feeling pretty well. Woke up around 12 something in the noon and we got the news. Reached baby’s grandma’s house around 1 something. We heard that she left peacefully without any pain or struggles just sleep all the way and left. Good to hear that she left peacefully. We’re sad to lose her but happy that she’s finally free from all the pain and worries.

They had a Buddhist style funeral. Oh I tell you, Christian style is much more easy and flexible. They have to pray from 7.30pm to 11.30pm with an hour break in between. All the people who came were basically neglected most of the time until they have finished praying, and that included me. Well I was the receptionist for the night even though I don’t know how to write Chinese.

Baby is not working until next Monday so today I came to work alone. I woke up at 7am to get ready and stuff. I’m not the only one though, baby’s brother is also up to go college. When he walked down the stairs he saw a baby lizard so he sprayed it with Shelltox. When I’m about to leave the house, I took the newspaper in and I reached and placed the newspaper at the dining table, I felt something on my left foot. “Omg! Fuck! Eewww!!Eeww!!!!!” I shouted. It was the lizard lying there on the floor unconsciously. It doesn’t move at all when I’m stepping on it. I felt so uneasy with my foot the whole journey till I reached office. All the stupid imagination is running through my mind even till now and I bet you won’t know how creative and genius I am when come to this. I think if it’s binny dear who stepped on it, he will cry out loud, well even though I’m also afraid with lizards. The other day when I’m back at my crib, I don’t dare to walk in to the bathroom in my room coz there’s a lizard inside and baby was already sleeping so I had to go to the bathroom outside.


Damn it! I’m so gonna hate lizards even more now!

P.S. Rest in Peace po po!...and Baby,don't be sad even though po po has leave us but she'll remain in our hearts forever.Love you lots...xoxo

P.S. Dear!!!I heard sexy back the other day on the radio...It makes me think of us, the time when we're dancing with sexy back in the car and every clubs we went!Love ya..xoxo

Love you till the end...

My weekends started off with a night of disappointment and hurt by people who I constantly treat them as very important people in my life. At least at this point of my life. I felt very upset since Friday night, I could never imagine that this can actually happened to me or I should say to us. Yes, I couldn’t deny the fact that every living creature in this world have their own responsibilities, own things to do, own problem to worry about, people or stuff to take care of and things or people they have to prioritize on their list. Me myself have nothing is different from anyone else in this matter. People come and go; your friends and even your loved ones. It’s just a chapter in your life. And so, I decided not to take any action or make any fuss about what happened on Friday night even though it hurts me deep inside, even though they don’t even know that they actually had hurt me.

I stayed at home on Saturday, feeling down about the night before. I watched ‘p.s. I Love You’ alone. Didn’t managed to catch it when it’s on the cinema so I bought it the week when me, dear and jack when back to Ipoh-Sitiawan.

I don’t know whether it is me who is feeling emo about the night before or it was the movie that touched me, leaving me crying out loud at my crib like nobody business. The movie reminds me of Grandpa. It’s sad to lose someone you loved. Compared to GBR breakup, breakup is like nothing. There’s no words can describe the feeling.

It’s still so clear to me even though it’s been a year ago. 30th April, a day before Labor Day was Grandpa’s one year anniversary. Time passed so fast and it’s already a year ago. Whenever I think about it, I'll feel regret. Regret because I’m not capable of doing anything to change Grandpa’s funeral. The funeral was messed up and I’m totally not happy with it. Is Grandpa happy?I wondered.

I still think of him every now and then. He always used to say “happy!happy!” even when he’s weak when he was in the hospital and nursing home. Grandma and everyone in the family claimed that I am the grandchild that he loved the most.

I still remember the time when he fetch me to and from school with his bicycle and he always buy candies for me even though he don’t have much money in his pocket when I was much younger. I still remember his laughter, very clearly…the last time he laughed was when I went back to see him the week before he passed away. I miss you Grandpa.