Living in a new environment

So i'm staying at dad's hse for abt 1 week or more.Well everything goes fine at d moment.I got my own room,got my own space.Is jst tat i cant eat in my room or anywhere else but d dining area,even when feel like eating my fav assam aso haf to sit down at d dining table to eat.GEes!I'm more organised tis time becos i got my own room,tats y..But dunno y tis few days i cant sleep since i came bak from stw,kip on waking up from my sleep tats y i sleep enuf hours but yet still sleepy.

There's so much to talked abt when i'm wif aunty.Mostly we talked abt relationships cos i lend her d Men from Mars Women from Venus,she like it so much,i think she already finish half of d book.Yesterday i told her everything abt my past relationship,so sad when i told her,nearly cried becos i'm feeling d pain again which i've controlled for d last few mnths.She told me her experience aso so i cud learn wat to do n wat i shud nt.She told me to follow wat my heart wants.She say tat she can c tat i'm suffering rite nw,she knw i've alot in my mind.Finally there's someone who realise tat,i appreciates it.She told me something which kip appearing in my mind now n den-Is true love tat important?.She said her fren asked her b4 "having someone who love u more is more bahagia or having d person u really love more bahagia?",aunt still doubt abt d answer...me either...Haih think so much for wat la,its doesnt matter nw,as long as there ppl care for me n love me,its enuf,totally enuf

Yest went to bank,went to carrefour,went to subang parade but not staying at home to do assignments which haf to pass up today tats y nw i'm at home instead n not in d class rite nw becos i cant finish my assignments on time!Last nite dad was lecturing me,telling me how to write n answer d question for d assignments.I found out tat dad actually do teach at a college b4 long time ago when he was much younger,marketing summore!Gees!Unbelievable...tats y he can gives me lectures yesterday.Kinda funny tho....cute...N our hse printer kenot use de,asking so many ppl whether ot printer anot n at last be helped me,took it to his customer there to print but duno can anot la,most prob can 1 la...Hmmm luckily got ppl teman me,Asthena aso din do her assignments,tis morning i smsed her she was jst starting i guess...Well,later b4 i go bak stw i gonna drop by sch n pass up den rush bak to stw lor cos be's fren bday is on merdeka day so we gonna go bak n celebrate his day+merdeka day;2 in 1...hehehe....so we most prob will drink again....

moved....

I moved out from papa hse.I told everyone tat i moved to Subang n they said 'y move to a place tat is much more futher from coll?',well here public transport easier ma!Now every morning class i take ktm to kl central den change to lrt den reach ampang park adi i take taxi to college.Abit mafan but nvmla,as long as i can reach in time earlier summore n nonit to mafan ppl to fetch me.Well i actually moved bak to dad's place,is jst a temporary thing,till i find a place to move den i'll move.Tis few days was browsing thru classifieds section of all those newspaper n internet to find a place to move.Asthena wanted to move aso so we decided to share.MOst probably will move to cheras cos Asthena oni prefer tis area n sumwhere near old klang rd,but i prefer cheras la,near to d pasar mlm tat i like to go.So long din go to tat tmn connought pasar mlm adi lor becos d person who brought me there can no longer n no way tat can bring me there ever again.Tis time at dad's place i got my own room adi lor.I din realise i got so many things till i move tis time,my things all occupied nearly half of a Serena mpv.I even got not enuf space to put in my room nw cos i only got a small wardrobe n 3drawers to use n kip my things...All my shoes aso dunno wana put where,now all my shoes is in a big plastic bag in d store room...kesian kesian but i'm ok wif it la,no complaints....

gtg nw,class is starting anytime from nw....bubye

Wat is L.i.F.e to me?

Is tis d life i wan?is tis d life i deserved?
i got so moody today.there's no reason y becos i duno,all i knw is i got tired of my life...I'm so tired of being hurt n hurting,so tired of being left alone wif all tis shit,facing all tis difficulties,so tired of being alone walking tis path of life...where is tat one person who said will be wif me no matter wat happen n will support me n will accept me for who i am....y there's nobody there to understand wat i'm goin thru,y there's no one ask me how i am,y nobody give me comforts n supports me,y often i feel unfair...i felt like crying out but i cant...WHY?!!!!<<----ya i am vry farn nw!i admit>>

Pressured or food poisoning?

Yesterday i din finish writing my blog becos i felt dizzy n vry uncomfortable so i went home.I din eat my lunch after d cucur bawang i had in d canteen.SO i went home n get some sleep.I cant sleep n kept turning around on d bed unconciously.Suddenly i woke up n i rushed into d toilet n puke.It was all d chunks of d cucur bawang*eeeWwwWWw*.Den after tat to sit down at d sofa to get some rest n watched tv.Not long after tat i puked again.Overall i puked for more than 3times n i went to doc.I told doc tat i had food poisoning n suprisingly he asked me 'tat means?' i repeated my answer n so he asked again 'meaning' den i told him wat happened in details.After tat he asked me to go on d bed or a chair wif mattress or i duno wat,he press on my stomach or abdomen to be exact,he said it was gastric pain.He said all tis is cause by my eating disorder n pressured i haf.Doc said i cant take anymore 'suprises' or pressure,becos those migraine,gastric pain is all caused by pressured i haf.Went bak home,ate medicine..wana sleep adi but puked again,all d medicine i ate wasted....poor me har....walk aso kenot walk properly,like nenek like tat....haih so pls la anybody,dun pressure me anymore.

Phuket Island paradise-pt. 1

I jst came back from Phuket yest,wif mum n her colleagues co its her company's family day vacation.It was a 4days 3nites trip.Its a nice place,so relaxing.

First day is a free day,no tour or plans cos we reached there abt 3pm den we went for lunch at a local malay thai restaurant.I had a thai fried noodles.Its so niceeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!my goodness n i miss it nw!Den mum had tomyam n i shared wif her.I tell u,is damn good!D places is called 'Marina Kitcken'-they spelled it wrongly,forget to take d picture of d signboard tim...After tat we went to check-in at d Royal Paradise Hotel,had a rest for awhile den went to haf our dinner at d hotel.SO after dinner we went out to d streets n walk around,shopping n take a look at d bangla street,d most happening places at Patong beach.Saw alot of 'akua' there,some of them were so pretty n sexy!D things there is more expensive than bangkok stuff co its a tourists place.Basically all those things they sell is d same as Bangkok ones.Shopping at there haf to bargain more,at least 50% of their price they offer.Den after tat we went for thai traditional massage for 2hrs,it was so nice n comfortable...n vry funny too cos i went there wif mum n her colleagues which is actually counted as my fren la,one of my mum colleague was so funny,he's so big n d lady who massage for him seems to haf a hard time n all of us kept on laughing there.After massage,we crossed over d street where d hawker is to get sticky mango rice n some barbeque stuff...d bbq stuff,bangkok ones is better.Den went bak to d hotel eat n sleep rite away.There goes our 1st day.

#will upload picture to tis blog soon....n d rest of d trip blog...sorry ya,tired nw#

Its been such a long time

When i viewed my blog i realise i havent been blogging for such a long time*for me*.REason is i was busy doin my colour wheel n all those quizzes n midterms i nit to study for.D major prb is i dun haf a laptop or a pc wif me,if i do haf i cant either cos there's no phone line at papa's place.D only way i online is at sch pc lab or any internet cafes.Well,i'm goin to find a place to move,stayin at papa place is so inconvenient in d transportation matters.Ya it is convenient for finding food in tat area but nw it doesnt matter for me cos i barely haf my meals complete due to mood n lack of appetite.If i found a place to stay den i can ask mum to get me a laptop adi.There's so much a wana blog abt but no time,so many things i wana express n share it,jst no time n not convenient.

My fren,best fren,melody called me one day n asked me wana rent a room anot cos she's planning to rent a hse den rent out a room for me,its sounds like a good idea for me but yesterday i get to knw tat she actually wana share it wif me.If i agree,i haf to pay half of d downpayment which will cost abt $1k!Gees!how can i afford tat much $?Even nw aso i'm having some difficulties wif tat already.I duno how to say 'no' but i will when time comes n dad actually haf a fren staying near sch so he'll figure it out for me i guess.N tat place she said is at pandan perdana in cheras,if i go sch i haf to change few public transport so i can reach sch n tat means tat i haf to wake up vry early.At d mean time,i jst haf to wait n search for 'room to let' signs where is near to sch or somewhere which is convenient.Susah betui!

Last nite Tiff smsed me,i was so suprised.I din knw tat i actually will appear in her 'fren lists'.She's busy n i guess all of us is busy.Chit chatted few topic tat come into our minds,some which i dunwan to mention when she asked me how i am wif tat 'somebody'.Good to haf frens like tis,who will sms u once in awhile but most of my frens dun,i'm d one who always sms them 1st.Even those who i take them as vry good frens din even sms me after i came out to kl to study for so long,maybe becos they haf their partners adi.But dun care la....i got new frens anyway...frens always come n go...

Today had accounts quiz,well i'm always bad in counting so i din complete it but most of my course mate din aso.Passed up my assignment 1 for accounting n all aso copy ppl de..hahahaha i'm such a failure.Last monday i completed my colour wheel on time,lucky me,all of us haf to present it n my theme is summer n winter.Last week i had fashion marketing mid-term n economics if i'm not wrong,kinda forgetful since tragedy happened to me in some time ago.Finally i got some rest today,came bak home n i slept for abt 3hrs woke up 8pm+.Had a bad dream but they said dreaming of someone die is actually a good dream instead.When i woke up i was holding my hp n i tot i'm goin to sch in d morning,i tot i'm late cos i din heard my alarm ring but its actually at nite n i tot i adi slept for d whole nite,proved tat i'm too tired.Seriously i am,din haf enuff sleep nowadays,slept late n haf to wake up early.Expected anyway,d life of a student.

I had a hard time anyway,

#i seems okay but am actually not okay##